Alice Ayres’ blog

It's almost been a week & days went by so fast. We hadn't talked to each other for about six months, Jesse & I. We had every reason to, but that's not the point. The point is; why does he always come back to me? Actually, I don't want to think about it, 'cause I'm not sure he's worth it.

Last Friday, he finally apologized - saying he shouldn't have done, shouldn't have said what he did & that he should have apologized to me a lot sooner. And I completely agree with him. Before our six month 'strike' we had been through sooo much together. We never had a serious relationship or anything, but we both knew we liked each other. When going out with a bunch of our friends, we always ended up making out or sleeping together. Then we finally saw that all of that had ruined our friendship, things got ugly and to shorten a very long story, from then on we didn't talk to each other for six months. Until Friday.

I was out with some of our friends & so was he. I had been drinking lots and lots of wine the entire evening. So believe me when I say that things felt quite comfortable to me. Apparently so did they for him, 'cause we started talking (everyone was like "huh?"..). One thing led to another... suddenly he couldn't stop touching me and he suggested we'd go to my place. At first, I didn't want to at all, because he had been dating this girl for about 3 months. But after a while, the alcohol got to my brain & the memories of him and I came back to me. I guess I eventually agreed when he held my head and kissed me as if our lives depended on it. To be honest, it felt as if we had been stubborn all this time and finally gave in to it.

We went to my place and fell asleep after some time. When I woke up I didn't realize he was lying next to me at first. I woke him up, told him it was already 8 am & that his parents would be worrying where the hell he was. He got up & put his clothes back on, tried to get me back into bed, but finally gave me some kind of kiss and went home.